The importance of taking ones medicine...

Those of you who know me more or less personally, know that I'm mental. I even got it on paper; I'm not quite sane. Now this doesn't have to be a bad thing; sane people are usually dull as paper, and having some mental problems has taught me a lot about myself and how I interact and affect other people. But, none the less; I've had lots of psychological problems, depressions, anxiety et cetera, and they all stem from this slight personality disorder I'm supposed to have developed. Not going to write so much about it, because I have done previously, but I will however say this: If you ever have problems like these, and get medication for it that you feel works; don't skip it. I might've been a bit sloppy the past weekend, missed a pill or two, and now I'm paying for it. The past several months I've been gloriously free from the monkey on my back, but this night was a harsh reminder of how it is to have serious anxiety issues, feeling like you're in a state of fear and panic every minute of every hour. This was a mild episode compared to the ones I've had before, but time does make you forget (thankfully) how uncomfortable it can be. Apart from the anxiety, I also get uncharacteristically aggressive if I miss a pill or two, and tend to fly off the handle for absolutely nothing. All in all; yay for drugs, as long as you remember to take them!

And now for something completely different...
Movies. When did they start to suck this badly? These days movie I actually want to see are few and far between, and the ones I get around to see due to the fact that they're supposed to be good, just aren't. Take Benjamin Button, for example, which was nominated for a bunch of Oscars, and even won a few, and has a rather high score at imdb.com. What did I think? God, what a yawn. Too many cliches, theatrical and bad new orleans accents, bad make up jobs (Cate Blanchett in that bed really looked awful). Maybe I missed something vital, but I didn't like it at all. The only thing I liked was the tattooed irish boat captain. I tried watching Australia as well, despite bad reviews, but never got more then halfway through; Nicole Kidman was right in being embarrased about her own performance (or, allegedly, what the director had done to her performance). Maybe I'm just picky, or pedantic, or difficult, or maybe it's the lack of medication. Who knows? I do, however, have a few movies I'm going to give a go before I give up on movies all together: Valkyrie (featuring insane midget Tom Cruise, but hey, I'm a sucker for anything war-related), Shaun of the Dead (because people tell me I just have to), The Spirit (Frank Miller ftw), Coraline and Inglorious Bastards. If none of these are remotely good, I'll give up.